Ra

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along

And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Wow. I totally forgot about this song by the Fray. It's lyrics and the video are both very strong.
Although rather mainstream I've always found the lead singers voice attractive. Right now however, The Fugees/ Lauryn Hill, India Arie, Flobots & Weezer are heavily influencing my ears and actions.

"How you gonna win when you ain't right with in?"

I'm working on me right now, I've been typing up many things I'd like to address with my parents. I have yet to decide how I will present my ideas to them. I could email it, print it out and let them read it in front of me or simple speak to them upfront. I want to be comfortable as I step out the box.

So I just beat the Elite four. It took about four tries too but my Pokemon team obviously but in work. HIRO gained $58060.
I'm really looking forward to April. I have plans for almost every weekend, all of which are some what anime related. I need to request more hours at work, I'm back to working only 15 hours. (-_-);

Last week was rough; I haven't cried that hard in a while. Going downtown and chilling at the harbor was un forgettable though, I can't help but to enjoy the smalls things.

-PS. wow I think the Siberian Husky has some competition in my heart. The breed known as Shiba Inu have amazing coats and are apparently more adaptable to housing and weather, Orgin: Japan :P That daily puppy app constantly makes my heart skip a few beats. Just Sayin...

My sleeping habits are way out of tune. I'm still up!? Good night ~~

Worse than Enimies

There are so many methods of birth control available. I think it''s wrong to have sympathy for any female to have a child by "accident". If you don't want a baby then don't let a penis anywhere near your cervix. End of story. I know that I've played with fire habitually -- but you know what they say "Love is like unprotected sex, make sure the ones you love are worst the risk." L.O.L

Anyway so the other night I brought [my new addiction] Pokemon Soul Silver.

The only problem is that Jordan has heart Gold and there is only one DS in this house. So I get home and pretty much demand for him to let me hold it. It was almost his bed time and I knew I would take it to school the next day. Long story short - my mother had to get involved because of our words. It's truly sad at how easily I snap on a member in my very own house. blood. I was angry, thinking of nothing but angry and threatening thoughts.
Over something so stupid!
Thinking back on it- even moments later. I got really really sad. I wanted to apologize but I felt like I've become such a stranger to his world as he is to mine, and it wouldn't mean a thing.
As I was gearing up to blog about this event a slightly crumpled piece of paper was slide under my door.
He had been up all night a letter of apology. Can I just say that was a first.
So bitter sweet. He had proven to be the bigger person and I was so happy I was nearly in tears. He agreed with what my mom had said and said he'd try harder to be nicer.
I love you Little Bro!

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きょおわ

"Things are looking up- Oh finally" Paramore

So today my head was on a bit tighter.
The weather was amazing! いいおてんきですね
Math clicked today and I did pretty much everything I wanted to do. Snowball was my road dog today - I can tell he enjoyed it very much. Out of the three jobs I applied for this month 0 came back as planned. It's all good though, I'll just continue to try at least three every month.
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Jordan from Facebook/ My Japanese Class encouraged Kelli and I to go Japan with him this summer. He went last year, with a group of friends and is determined to go again. I would love to go! He has no idea...I just have to take the steps. I'll insist on him giving me the updates often.