[big] Bang Theory

Toss up my feelings
Watch 'em explode
they'll blast and sparkle
and rain down white gold
I wish I couldve escaped
and entered in some where new
What I fool I was to believe in "me and you"
Out of my fucking mind to
drop all my walls
Crazy in love
and youre the one to make me fall

I'd give it all

These fireworks are loud and annoying
so damn pretty but
dye shortly after growing
screaming and alive
hot like fire
We use to be like that
but then became liars.

The darkness makes the light only stronger
You wont be loving me for much longer
I was happy and needed
for the first time ever
nothing you say or do could make it all better

Close my eyes & listen to the screech
through out life we must be willing to
learn and teach
So I ened up not being the girl for you and sadly
this is just the start
of my grand finale

Am I living or what....?

After reading that quote somewhere it’s like its haunting me.
Just what is it that I’m doing with myself?
Who , What, Why, am I even here for?
We’re told to never stop looking even though there is no real answer to that.
So why then?
When people choose not to believe in God then what other reason is there?
Why hate what others claim to see and you can’t.
16 years alive is not long at all - but am I really as alive as I think I am.
At times I really doubt it; My soul seems to have left me long ago and theres only a matter of time before this frame collapses.
All around me people are hurting, pinning the blame on there self and on others. But blame is just a word. Fault is even less important if you ask me.
Cuz’ I feel so lost, used and unfaithful. I wonder how many others are out there that feels the same as I. Who can tell me if I really am feeling what I think.
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It’s all too much.

Photostop Life

Poem by Yours Truly.


Airbrush a smile,
Smudge red into my cheeks.

Edit and cut until my look is complete.
Multiply my layers and toogle my mask.
Hide my background, it's not strong enough to last.
Solar flare my attitude &

Scale it to 10.
Lasso my thoughts together and out line them in pen.
Now place "myfriends.jpg" and magic wand them in plastic.
Add a border and type in "Fantastic"
Render all special effects
adjusting anything that would seem too complex.
Merge it all into one, save and then your done.