Uncoil

dare datte shippai wa suru nda
hazukashii koto janai
kono kizu o muda ni shinai de
waratte arukereba ii

SO. Let me re~ introduce myself.
I am Shayla. I'm seventeen and I LOve loVE.
It's pretty much impossible for me to hate someone. Love & Peace!
The reason for all my recent failures was me not knowing myself. I've always been too hard on myself... all that has changed now, I feel completely opposite. Its amazing. I'm amazing. Heheh, I'm serious this time.

• Once you'd hit rock bottom you can only go back up. //sign>

I've been driving with my mom every chance I can get, It feels good. Im still an extreme novice but I've defiantly have built confidence behind the wheel. Watch out now.

uuuum, Anime USA was pretty rad. I went with Kelitah but we parted as soon as we got there. EEgh. I'm not going to lie I was pretty damn lonely, but I made up for it with my excessive spending. i have the coolest hat ever! Ah Ive been wearing it everyday. I also got a rather intresting plushie, don't even ask me to pronounce the dudes name - I have no idea.

I saw [in person] Kage the other night. Can we say extreme burst of emotion? from both sides none the less. I won't go into detail. However, there's a sneaky little smile upon my face. ...

Could this be out of line?

Course not, it's my own life! Shoot.

Updates

Ok, So I really don't plan on updating until I see a difference in my attitude about everything.




Why is being positive so hard???

Little one [So warm]

It's over little one. The storm has passed. So let down your umbrella, dry your eyes & let go of that vice grip on your 'bleeding' heart. Smile that beautiful smile of yours. You had your time, you learned to share things truly important to you. Now it's time to just be selfish. You need to see yourself as the most important person alive. You don't need a dude in your life to feel anything but natural. You don't need to be intimate with anyone right now, there's no rush. Patience Please. Mrs. independent. Your going to do great things, if, and only if you keep up your spirit. Don't show your loneliness to anyone ever again, ya hear me?
Believe it or not you have truly become an inspiration to some already. Simply by getting back up after such an extreme case of loyalty destruction. Your young, give your heart a rest. It's done well for its first time. & So, just continue to be strong & Strive for only the positive things. Follow your own path & be excited that for once your not anyone's shadow but, perhaps their shade. It must be nice, being so close to the top you can touch the clouds. Be there for only the people who want to be there for you. It takes no energy to avoid superficial behaviors. Actions always speak louder than words - You should know that well. Have faith. Stay creative. Have determination, motivation and never stop loving love!

The Notebook

Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.