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Sensual Seduction - Snoop Dogg


This will probably be one of my most pathetic entries yet.
For I have fell under the spell of my bed. I can't seem to leave it no matter how hard I invasion me being anywhere else. Just like a crab. I feel safe here, watching movies and occasionally working with my new marker set.
Lately, I just feel too much, it's overwhelming to say the least. My words are slurred and my motivation has been shot in the heel. I want to ride my bike, I want to pretend that I am readying myself for a marathon of some sort. I want to be able to actually fit into the couple workout pants I brought and took off the tags too fast.
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I'm bothered by everything at the moment, I'm moving too slow for my liking and I most of all, I hate the fact that I am complaining. I wish I could just hang up all these unwanted feelings on a coat rack and put on my super woman vest. I pray for a clear mind.

In other news, Ive gone nearly 4 weeks make up free. I was never dependent on it, but I had a conversation with a girl who believed that I was, every time she saw me I had it on. That was a little shocking to me, seeing as how I never really defined eyeliner as make up anyway.. or if so, no more drastic than glasses or a hat. On and off.

P.S.I will make it to the beach in the near future, I just can't wait.

Con mis amigoes

I get by with a little help from my friends : The Beatles

Nothing poetic or beautiful is on my mind tonight. Nothing regarding the news in the world or news from within. I just wanted to briefly acknowledge my sometimes louder voice that echos only online. Perhaps I am suffering from writers block? Or maybe it's just that I've finally began to vent my feels towards another form of life and have found blogging not as much of a necessity as it has been in the past? Or could I be back to square one; sharing none of my thoughts with anyone or anything. Giving them no room to breathe or grow. Who knows?

I feel as though, nothing is missing nor been forgotten. Somethings I think about have finally been laid to rest and a more positive outcome is the result. New friendships means a new chance to try again, taking the love I have and hoping that it'll be returned. Maybe even paid forward.
It's nice to know that some of my oldest friends still find time to call or answer a call from me and lighten up my day even more.
It's amazing what one authentic smile flashed can do to the rest of my day///
I am thankful and free inside my head right now. Everything shines brighter under the night sky. I do not regret nor feel guilty any longer. With an open heart and open arms I await what the future has in store