100 mph Leads to a Missing Child Report

I've been wanted to blog for some time now, I start, then I stop, I save a draft then I delete it. Now, I feel under the weather and I have all the time in the world to let it out. What I remember at least.

I'm keeping the original title I had saved up because it was such a rush for me, riding in the passenger seat next to Sir.
As we swirled, nearly drifted down the dark, slick back roads of dogwood. Going over 100mph at times - it was exhilarating to say the least, I understand my life was in danger but I had already let go of those fears the moment I sat down. He unintentionally had epic movie music blasting and I had only made a cameo appearance in that short film.

My Birthday came and went, I spent it with two people who I'd never think I would, two people I had known since 6th grade South West Academy. We traveled to Six Flags New Jersey and had had a ball. I had conquered the worlds fastest and tallest coaster;twice. My lack of a voice was proof of that.


Lately however it seems as though time is flying and staying still all at once.
My days are once again blurring into each other and events are becoming a little less unforgettable.
Im not to sure of who I am to anyone anymore. Kelitah called me her best friend and brought me a huge cupcake,
I told Jojo I'd live with him in PA,
I keep hearing "I love you", "I want you",
My dad whispers in my ear "vacuum the stairs" one day and "wash out that bowl" the next, (never a 'good morning daughter'),
I haven't spoken to Dean since Pride?
and I only work twice a week?!

What is going on? O_O

ArtScape 2010 was a huge success.
I can see me volunteering there next year, So much diversity and unimaginable works all complied into one location. It felt right, I stood out, I think. It had it's movie like twist but still I enjoyed it that much Saturday that I went back Sunday (only to pass out from heat exhaustion) but Hey! Oppa! It was all in good fun. Hahaha.


I'm still attending CCBC this fall,... I assume.
Still completing my general studies, this time I'm throwing art into the mix. I'll be taking an introduction to watercolor night class. The highlight of my Wednesdays. That above all is what I find to be the most exciting thing to me.
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Otakon is less than 2weeks away. I am ready-ish. I hope the hotel thing works out well. I plan to spend a lot of time in the artist alley, and not as much time in the Dealers room or at the rave. I can pre feel the pulsating of my head as a result of those two things.

I am unsatisfied, I am happy, I have dazed and confused, I am hungry, I am what I thought I would be at this point, I am lonely, I am loved, I am trying to make everyone happy still, I am only a 19 year old girl (that could conquer the world).

She's in Disguise- Awooo

A lesson without pain is meaningless. That's because you cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return. But, once you withstood the pain and overcome it, you will gain a heart stronger than everything else. Yes. A full-metal Heart.

Lys say's I'm.. we're growing up. Am I really? I mean, I want to...
See, I have dreams now, big dreams. Pennsylvania or maybe even Delaware bound dreams. I want you. When I open my doors to my apartment I don't want to be scared, only excited. I want you there so I need to work hard, do my part ya kno?

Can you believe? ~~~

So all the most recent summer flicks I've seen have been pretty memorable to me, all excluding Last Air Bender. Terrible. Worst 30-35 mins or so of my life (I had caught the ending after I got off work.)
I'm still very much hopeful for Eclipse. I plan to see that tonight actually, I couldn't resist seeing what I saw already before I had to clock in. having read it I'm pretty sure I know what to expect, the time of this movie in relation to my life is freaky. The story line defiantly picks up but this book, and the love triangle only intensifies. (F aux Dramatic ) ooh no~ who will Bella choose?~ why did she kiss jacob? What does the Volturi have planned for the Cullen's?

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I had spent a week with my family, and extended family in Louisiana. It was pretty simple; lots of laughs, hugs, smiles, meat [[BOUDIN!]], mosquitoes and rain. I enjoyed myself. I wouldn't rush to go back anytime soon but the time there was well spent. The area in which we stayed in Lafayette was called Ville Plat. A strongly segregated town years ago, still very rural. Areas of dirt roads, stray children,wild dogs, porch monkeys, chickn'beer. It made me feel grateful to be in Baltimore but then again, theres nothing new under the sun....
"Aw, Shae, Bless your heart. Audreymae loves you."

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Finishing up Brotherhood was a bitter sweet feeling, in the end everything worked out for the best. Humans are predictable and yet unpredictable. I really hope someone else got out of it what I did. CYA l8r