Pride

GAY PRIDE *wink*

Lol. So yeah, I went to the Gay Pride Festival Saturday. It was,... I was lost for words. It was like Queer as Folks and The L word in 3D! hehe people making out every where I turned, Giant Drag queens walked the streets with swag.

There were a lot of sexy people there [gurls and guys]. I was with Kelitah and her two friends from work* [I'll come back to them]. Things were going great until my parents showed me how much they loved me by making up so many excuses as to why they couldn't pick me up. Kage ended up being my hero again but now I'm paying the price* I'll get back to this too.

When I got in, [a little after 11] what did they fucking say [or rather text]?

"Goodnight".
"Thank God."

.......................

Good Night I love you.

So yea, going back to Kelitahs friends the ones that drove us down town. They were like my role models. It was obvious they had been friends for a long time. While in the car they were so funny & vulgar, they had the best like idiosyncrasies like "pound my shit" XD
Yeah it was one of those you had to be there moments. but um... It made my so happy and sad and hopeful...

One day, I'll find you.

Now for the other asterisks. Kage isn't talking to me at the moment.. I'm not 100% sure why. But you know my brain just hass to have a panic attack. Im so paranoid. I keep hearing my phone ring or vibrate. I barely got any sleep last night or the nite before. I tried calling once or twice but that didn't work. Sigh. I made a vow with Danni that I wouldn't chase after him though. I at least owe that to myself. What an asshole! Asssssssssss Hooooooollllle.
So yeah. with him gone my self esteem is back to a negative 3 and the emo songs are back on repeat. I hope everyone else is having fun.
Oh yea, & also I'm apparently going to Kings Dominion for my BDay. .. I'm taking off alot next month. Or at least I'mma try too.. Hopefully it'll be worth it.

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Taki, Sora, Riku, Ha, Kumo, kaze, Kusa

[Waterfall, Sky, Land, Leaves, Clouds, wind, and grass]
So this morning, I went on a nature hike. Lol yes, literally. Kage took me Sir Shannon and Chris early this morning to his [use to be] job site. There we [80% of just them] climbed mini mountains, walked on train tracks, threw rocks at a dead dog, swam in the lake next to a beautiful waterfall that I took a picture of, and jumped off this bridge into another lake. It was different, relaxing and peaceful. Being the only girl there I wasn't head over heels excited about the whole thing but was proud of myself for keeping up with everyone and just plain happy to be out of the house. We were gone for only about 4 hours but it felt like forever. When I got home I ate and crashed. Wouldn't mind doing it again actually :]

Marilyn Monroe

I believe that everything happens for a reason.
People change so that you can learn to let go.
things go wrong so that you can appreciate them
when there right, you believe lies so you
eventually learn to trust no one but yourself,
and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together

Congradu[smuffin]lations !

I'm Officially a Senior Now~ !!
It's an O.K. feeling i guess. I'm more content in the fact that I won't be in school for the summer. The last day of school did not go as I had planned at all [but I put the blame on no one]. First off, it was hot as hell & so the two finals I had to take seemed very easy to me. Idk if thats a good thing, but being in class that day felt so weird haha, ma brain was on log off XD.
I didn't get to say goodbye to everyone I wanted too... but I'm not sure I had anyone specific to say goodbye too in the first place.
I was about a second away from taking the bus home but Steph encouraged me to hang with her so thats how I ended up going to her house then ending up at the mall. I had a pretty shitty time there. However, I learned alot:

• I don't think I like the mall like I use to
  
• my paranoia level defiantly rose
• "ask and you shall receive"
• Ice cream is the best 'pick me up'
  
• life's too short
• preppy stores really do make me dizzy
  

It only took a few hours there until I literally broke down. I left the group I was with, called my mom and cried my eyes out still walking casually around the mall and even ordering some much needed ice cream. It was kind of pathetic and I didn't want to go back to the girls looking like shit so I fixed my face and heading back to them with a perfectly new mask. That's was the last time I shed tears for you. Claire became closer to me after that, Steph too.
I felt like a better person when I got back also. I brought a cute rainbow star necklace and was drawn to the clothes in the last bit of stores, Steph and I rocked out to guitar hero for a few. It was funny when we all tried to squeeze into the photo booth and later pronounced my love for Kuromi. Which was came in handy cause while in Hottopic Claire paid half of what was the bag of my dreams. Ah! I love it so much, and I'm so thankful for her. I will pay her back in interest. We got back to Stephs house around 5 and instantly Claire and I had to but our big girl panties on. Steph was a mess when she thought her & Floyd had broken up. I was confident that they didn't [ Basing that solely off of me and Kages cycles.] We tried comforting her but at first nothing worked but then slowly she came around. We sat there in silence for a while as she worked things out online and then like I had for saw the two survived another obstacle. ^_^ I was truly happy for her and in general. We watched movies the rest of the time then left.

Flip Flop Flippity Flop

Weird title.....
I'm guessing it came from the fact that I brought 3 pairs of black flip flops today. Why? I'm not quite sure. Lol.

So yeah, Friday I saw Kung Fu Panda; it was great. I'd see it again.

Friday night and all of Saturday I spent working like a zombie again. Sunday I finally broke down and wore my outfit I brought from eBay.[I love it] I had a feeling I wouldn't be needing it the next day. Ironic much.
Speaking of the next day, tomorrow is the last day! I'm so happy I don't have any plans for the rest of the week. I plan on visiting Jamie again some time soon. I want the Red Family to plan something else.. and then again I don't. I also want to go to the lake Kage almost killed himself at. lol long story. Maybe I can do that tomorrow? *shurgs* I really hope he finds a job soon. I forgot what else I was gonna say...
so the end.

*PS. Shaun you write way too much dude*

God's Piss

So yeah apparently God's fury is nothing to reckon with. I found that out the hard way. What started out as a nice reunion with my pals; Peanut, Andy, Luminara, Ralph, Shawn & Shannon turned into one of those life changing, death cheating events. It all started at the Woodlawn library - a place I haven't been to in months. We all met up there. Then after that [and I'm not sure whose idea it was] we ending up walking to the mall. Things were going great for about the first 5 minutes - after that as the title suggest, God drank a 2 litter and pissed it all out. It was all fun and games at first, cracking emo jokes and walking in front of cars during rush hour. But then the nightmare occurred, the rain got stronger and harder and heavier. My tiny little umbrella was fighting with all its might and Peanut had to stay back with me to make sure I didn't get blown away. [Marry Poppins style[lmfao]] The journey across the parking lot seemed to take the longest on a count of I ran half of it. When we finally got of the rain I dropped onto the floor for a few. Ha, when we all reunited it was funny cause we looked like we all went swimming and forget to take our clothes off. My hair puffed up and we were all shivering our tails off. The whole time I remember laughing hard. It was deffinatly a new experience that I do not wish to be apart of again... unless I have a bathing suit. My mom came hours later took Peanut home first, then as soon as I stepped foot in my room stripped completely and warmed up in my comfy bath robe. ^_^ *takes long deep breath*

Tomorrow I'm bringing cookies and my camera. Better make the last days count ne? Screw finals....

My Pregnant Lady

Before anyone jumps to conclusions about my title; no, I'm not fucking preggo!
*cough*

But Kage is...
Idk how it happened but the Gods shall finally bless us with a sweet child o mine.
Hallelujah.


Lmao JK. but today we got into another dramatic argument in which a few tears fell, the f-bomb was dropped, i attempted to walk home, suggestions on breaking up, marrying.. and some more shit. *sigh* We chilled in our favorite spot for a while, laughing and falling in love again.

" It is better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than to lose that someone you love with your useless pride"

When I finally got home I just chilled, made plans with Luminara and then a very random Peanut called me. We talked for a long time, I was kinda shocked. It was also ironic seeings as how one of Kages biggest fears/ concerns mention today was that he cannot trust me with him [cuz apparently we're too close] bullshit. Well he'll just have to deal with that cause I love Peanut to death, he's like an older brother for lack of a better description. lol. I swear I'll get this whole situation worked out... well, 'help out' rather, as much as I possibly can. I cant stand to see people close to me suffering.

Thats my Ninja way of course!

• We all must get harder, better, faster, stronger
• Smurfs.. I've decided not to give on you all just yet.
  
• 7 More days of school and counting!
  
• Working is ruining my life... in a good way : )
  

Foot Massage

So yeah. My social life was "smoted" <-- the past tense of smite? this weekend. I had to work crazy hours. Still got to see "The Strangers" though. That was a piece of shit. I waisted my time covering my eyes. nothing happened! No riping intestines, piercings or sawing took place. Blah.

Kages mad at me, we haven't talked since Friday evening.
*sigh* Not now dude, I need you the most .

Starting tomorrow, theres only 8 more days of school. HO' shit.

Peanut; You made me burst out in laughter for absolutly no reason at work today & you were even near me. <3

What does it mean if a girl says shes has a "mean stroke" o_0 ???
- I'm not even sure I wanna know.