Sleep all day

"How we spend our days is of course, how we spend our lives."

I am not living right now. Dead.
What is it holding me without chains but myself?
I admit that I have fallen, and will declare that I will rise.
I am strong enough to push pass the fear of living. Growing with age and wisdom.
I can't wait for my friends to catch up nor can I ask for you to wait up.
I have to act soon. It will be hard but this is a promise that'll transcend time itself.
If I wanna be attractive, self confident, acknowledged, healthy, loved;
If I wanna be any of that. It must first start from within me!

I will do it alone if I have too, but I'm sure that wont be the case.

PS. Demand Clean water. kthnks

Confessions of a weird kid

Shayla likes Dylan
Shayla hopes Dylan likes Shayla for Shayla
Shayla still doesn't know Dylan that well.
Shayla wants to learn to like Dylan for Dylan
Shayla likes when Dylan says 'come over'
Shayla loves Panda and Anna.
Dylan makes Shayla feel a new kind of happy.
Shayla is scared.
Shayla is excited.
Shayla and Dylan would make a cute couple
If Dylan would just let Shayla know how he really felt.
Shayla needs a whole lot of attention
Shayla can be a jerk
Shayla has a problem.
Shayla doesn't trust Dylan
Dylan is a mystery.
Dylan is a jerk.
Shayla knows Dylan is going to hurt her. Somehow.
Cause that's what boys do!
But Shayla won't be scared cause that's life.
And she really likes Dylan!
Shayla wants to steal Dylan's heart
before all those other chicks eat it.
& Shayla thinks about Dylan a lot and wishes she could see him more.
Shayla needs a car.

Shayla is a Cancer
Dylan is a Capricorn

The end.

Cloud nine

It was a beautiful day today.
Hours after hour I impressed myself.
I sleep in class a lot of now and I'm growing a bit more social in between classes.
I laugh at my own jokes and really love myself from time to time.
I gave a random guy $1 when he asked, no hesitations.
Lol and why? ...
The root of all this friskiness was all due to my experience the day before with him.
Something I don't regret but wish I had more control of.
My metaphorical heart has split, grown bigger, grown bitter and will eventually self destruct.
Chasing the impossible. 10 mph.
But I will continue to smile and love warm days like this one today because I felt alive. I felt.
&& No matter what tomorrow brings I'll be there.....

My Melody (random song lyrics)

If I don't say this now, I will surely break.
Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that 'it's ok',if you don't mind
Let me be myself

Pain make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me...
Can you help me understand?
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else


No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again

There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
And why. do we like. to hurt so much?
I can't decide


Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you