Everlong

“A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow.” William Shakespeare.

So my mind is a bit cluttered. I'm at a lost & I don't really know what to do. When I think about acting I get angry and big headed so I move on. Yoga and eating healthy are my go to activities. I drawn and completed a picture (it came out great btw), I've cooked, cleaned up my room, practiced my Japaneses and even got my hair dyed again. All of this, things I love, seem so distant. I'm restless! I want to see my love again. I want to be by my friend...

I swore I wouldn't let anyone get to me but I know I'm not that type of person.

Talking to Sir is defiantly proof - as mean as he can be to me. I know he's lonely and just needs a friend. I won't judge him or get involved I just like listening to him cause I know how much doing just that can help a soul. He's also a great advice giver. It makes so much sense.. .the things he says, at times. It makes me wonder if he truly knows his potential. Maybe he does and that's what hurts so much. Who knows.
I need to draw again. I'm not as rusty as I thought. It helps me focus. Speaking of which, I have homework that' s starting to pile up. English 101 is very intimidating -I pretty much will have to re read A Long Way gone// that way I can highlight notes and answer the questions she assigns. I wonder what my essay will be about. I barely have class tomorrow so I'll have a lot of time to start.

O-yasumi-nasai おやすみなさい

Cause Every Time We Touch

- -Currently listening to :
Lykke Li - Little Bit


All is well.....



What a busy week I can proudly look back upon. New burning and re ignited flames warm my heart and body. Feeling what I feel when I feel it has never been so satisfying!
My sensee (Tojo) has put into action a study abroad class trip to Japan. I can see it. I can really see it. A week? Ten day? who knows, but I do know if that means putting in more hours at work and studying harder outside of class then so be it. My dream for years is transcending.
TIGER CON 2009 was held at Towson University all day yesterday. I believe this was there second year. The JRock band Geist (who was all so the opening act for Kannon @ Otakon '09) mentioned something about it...
It was pretty nice, everyone made the most of it.
I'm not going to lie I was in a really pissy mood on my up there. Doing favors for people without gas money really stabs at my motivation, but after meeting up with everyone I cooled down and began the bubbly "vegetarian" we all know and love. I of course cosplayed as my beloved SOUL and fit right in with the other long haired cosplayers. Jojo and the gang where pretty much my sidekicks. Anna and Kage had been there for hours and had pretty much made a connection. Which was fine I just felt a little bad that I didn't chill with her like I said I would the day before. Instead I was out with Kage in towson, then Dean and I went on a date then Ron, Nicco and I entertained ourselves in my car.

Well anyways I'm grounded now. school and work.
Let see how that goes.

The thought of leaving home, living in my own place is really, really excited.

Ame AMe Kyuuobi!

Today it rained [a lot ] all day.

I did however found time to chill with Peanut & Ron.
Ron beat my ass in a pokemon battle then Peanut utterly detroyed the both of us countless amounts of times.
Hah. Later we went around to different places for food and cash checking stuff. We also went to Columbia to see Tim Burtons fail. I mean movie "9".

Synopsis:
9 was that last of his kind to be created.
Curiosity got the best of him and led to the awakening of the beast.
Thus leading to the many deaths of his friends
& after a heroic display to defeat the beast, his friends had a proper burials
and life continued on as it dead before 9 was there...
WTF ?!. Solid D. Don't waste your time or money. ...Jus saying.

& on an even more almost far fetched note I got into my first car accident.
Wet roads don't give you much time to stop at red lights....
I slid into the back of a sexy red car like some major league baseball player. No one was killed. obviously. The little girl from the other car and Peanut both banged their heads some how and was in pain but nothing too bad happened. Well the front of my car is rather bent up. But hey "at least we have our health"...
I'm sorry everyone.

(Ha how ironic I here "wee o wee o wee" (Lil Waynes song] playing up in my parents room))

I am CCBC: Zero Gravity

[RECAP]:
I'm a college kid!
My first week of college was a very high spirited one. I have taken in a lot for a lot has happened.
I have four classes; health, English, Math & Japanese. The teachers seem cool enough and the diversity of race and age range is absolutely fascinating. I just hope that when the time come when I am asked to more; I will face it with a confident and willing attitude. Gotta set a good example for my lovelies. :)

I have my own car now. My mom decided it was time she got a new (used) upgrade of her Civic and so now a light blue Accord joins the family. I called my self pimping out my car the other day but getting stickers, dangely things, and two car seat covers. I know it's a bigger responsibility now so i gotta be firm about the people who ride with me....



Kodocha (Kodomo no omocha)
I finished the series yesterday!
102 Episodes killed in 15 days.
I loved it. #1 favorite Shojo/ Romance anime.
(1kodocha. 2kare kano. 3host club. 4fruits basket. 5paradise kiss.)

Jasmine is off to Florida for a while starting today. She sprung it on me so randomly. Blllah. Now what? Lol. Everyone is working / college. I just wanna play!!!
*selfish*
So my mind got the best of my last night. Besides chatting it up with my main mans Pecan. er.. I mean Peanut for a ba-jillion hours. I was so. so. So. worried about the locations of my peers. Unpleasant dreams and even some reoccurring nightmares truly kept me from a good night rests. Ugh! I am such an immature and dependent person.... I wont go into much detail but *sigh*.....

"Shayla. what on earth am i going to do with you?"

([4give but don't forget. Live & Learn])

sometimes that seems to generic/ cliche but it really is worth keeping in my heart...

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I am more than willing to do more for the people I care about. It makes me happy. Regardless of I get a -thank you- or not.

*Let the beauty you love be what you do*