l dolce far niente

I began my morning just like every other only this time, for approximately 1 hour and 45 minutes I was swimming in a pool of positive, passionate, infinite energy. My SPCA orientation took place today; about 30 interested volunteers showed up and we all received a shrink wrapped introduction on what exactly the SPCA was, how things would be run and got as many question we had answered. Phase 2 is complete! Next I begin my training, you know with like the dogs and cats that live on the estate. Before heading to work, I had took a walk to the kennel just to meet some of the dogs and cats I would soon be dealing with. Can I just say! The moment was priceless; I felt as eager as the animals where to finally meet one another.

(Below is Husky/ Malamute mixed, his name is Thunder.)As a result of this episode, I have this great feeling of "everything is going to be ok". It's as if I'm meditating and not even realizing it, I feel a bit high, warm and most of all love. Am I even allowed to feel this?? "You feel guilty because you're American!" I'm blessed and grateful for just being in this moment-- I want to share this feeling with everyone. I want you to feel love. Spiritual awakening happens and then vanishes almost as swiftly as it came.Come back!!

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long
(Erase all the pain till its gone)
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

Ok so disregarding the entire rest of that song, I love singing that part of the chorus, it had sneaked it's way into my brain while at work today.

Too good to be true?

Experience is a great teacher

So it's time for yet another Facebook diet. I'm sick of the anxiety, the trolling, the misleading updates, the refusals to respond and the involuntary dependence on that shit. Guh!

School is vast approaching, I'm trying my best to save what little money I have for books and paint. I can't wait to do well. Speaking of school I made contact with my old speech teacher! It was so exciting, he told me how he was doing and sent me the link to his new site. I will gladly become a member when it gets fully up and running. The last school related thing I have to share has to do with a very important key function of humans, that is my memory. It's been failing me some kind of terrible as of late. It's not a good feeling, I gotta get it together.

Currently listening to Human Nature - Michael Jackson.

So I spent my day with Jacob Mayberry, never thought that day would come. It was very enjoyable though; we shared a lot of thoughts and ideas. He broke down poetry and made me familiar with the rules; I had to stand in front of him and read pretty much everything a wrote down on paper and tell a story out of thin air. Ha-ha! how intense.
We were crafting our skills for hours, time flew by so fast It wasn't even a bother. I honestly had no where else to be, so there we sat with no distractions and I took in as much as I could.
Jacob truly is a character, that guy. (Lucas Lee) He's funny and dominating and probably no longer capable of being silent for longer than 5 minutes... unless he's writing.
His, for a lack of better words, insanity to practice, recite,and write are so inspirational. I will reach that level one f theses days.
:Shayla!
:Not now ma, I'm drawing
:But you've been in that position for hours!
:Silence!


Lol, sike naw. In all seriousness I shared things with Jacob I haven't shared with anyone. At least not that I know of. My "sleep number", obsessions and "Rage Egg Complex". They were all stripped of their clothing in a matter of hours. I guess with the right energies my walls just come tumbling down.

That's all for now.