Just who am I trying to fool here?

Intuition noun. direct perception of truth, fact, etc., independent of any reasoning process; immediate apprehension. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ So here it comes again. These feelings. I'm sick of this. ....Kage you fucking destroyed the world I thought I knew. How did it come to this. I feel so ...........awake..... My heart and my mind.... theyre not working together anymore My heart still loves you. ..... Still loves you. Just come back... say your sorry, stalk me, cry, beg...cause It'll be worth it. [Shayyyyla. Your a cute girl the right one is out there for you. Focus on other things. I'm here for you if yyou ever need to talk. Forget about him, you don't deserve this. I hate seeing you this way. What do you even see in him. Your so nice. ] I'm sick of hearing this. I. DON'T. CARE. You were the only one that ever really mattered to me. Things would/ could be so differnt. I'm not fine with or with out you. Don't say I'm better off..... [alone] I think I'm waiting for you forever and havent even realized it yet. Shit Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish Foolish. -------------------------------------------------------------- [Conversation with myself.] What the fuck. Can't I just die and be reborn wiser?. Why would you do that to the people who love you? Cause This life doesnt make since. Your just over thinking again Its better than running in the dark even for what seems like a sec. you must learn patience or you'll always be seen as imm... imma...what?! immature. tch, there's so such thing as the perfect time. why can't i act now instead of worrying of about the future. Its the future thats holding you back right now. no its my past. .... my past? your afraid of what you can become. youre afraid of chance no! give yourself a chance. focus. meditate. I cant! i cant think straight for longer than. just do it. do it for yourself but i love him. i really do. i swear to you i really think i need him, his ideas, his soul near mines. hahaha. well then wait. wait for what....? wait for him then shayla. he'll come back to you. ha

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Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever.

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Forever? Pfft. More like until an amazing and inspiring person enters my mind and fills up this crater.
Yeah so right now, I love you. I love you so much because ..... damn. Wait what??