Sleepless

it's currently eleven oh four.
my body feels like jello.
Blah~
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I feel like dog food again. It's always a lose/lose for me.
Lumi came to visit me today at work; that was nice. we still have the same dumb boy issues. lol. It's such a small world. I don't ever wanna be considered special again.
*sigh*
I wish she would've came over like she said she would...
After work, I went back to cleaning out my past; I've trashed so many notes, photographs and journals its ridiculous.
I've been going at it with every corner of my room. Dusting, vacuuming, recycling, re organizing, unplugging, and defiantly rediscovering.

Dude. I can fcking draw.

My old sketch books and doodles almost make me want to cry.

Where did I go wrong?

Maybe I'm just feeling myself too much; but I'm happy. Haha! Wow, did I really just inspire myself?!?

I realize how distracted I was. I love drawing.
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I can't wait to really start painting my room. Hopefully Lys will be here to help. I really wish I took some "before" pics. My walls are nakid now. So is under my bed and my corners. For the most part everything is well dusted. I even lit a strawberry candle. Mannnn, I'm really feeling this sshit!
Do you think your better off alone ? [fuck love]

** Sorry I just had to copy/ paste this again.
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[[Kage just txt me.
He wanted me to go to a concert with him. Pah.
I said no, so now I'm a loser & he's lonely. ]]

I think I should ... rest for a bit. I really hope I get interrupted by a phone call or something.
* I have no new prom updates.
*God I was an ugly kid. Lol Middle school was my rough years.
*pinacolda + banana = YUM