"You are and will always be a part of me. ... A part of me that I no longer wish to face anymore."
My mom and I saw "The Lovely Bones" tonight. It was an odd and beautiful tale. I want to read the book as soon as possible. Death was glorified so much in the movie, Suzie Salmon was murdered by the neighborhood child predator. .. The rest you must find out on your own.
I day dream about it a lot. My death. I don't feel much of anything because well, I'm dead.
Don't take this wrong, not trying to be emo here. Just honest. Who would cry for me and why?
How did I die and who would I want to see the most only seconds before the curtains call?
Who would find a way to blame themselves and who would blindly look for my killer?
Who would be too heartbroken to continue and who would find to strength to start.
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Just thoughts anyway. I don't want to scare anyone away so I'll shift gears.
Speaking of gears, this whole car bit is blowing me. The demand for money is increasing and it's hurting my parents I know it. If only I was more aware and never crashed that night...
I must maintain at least a 3.0 while at CCBC or I pretty much won't be able to afford driving again. It's a scary thought..Japanese is a serious class, as well an math.. and speech * sigh*
I need strength. The kind of strength that can only come from with in. In order to do so I feel as though I must cut more. More memory, more time, for people from my current self.
(RF: Snakes shed their skin at least 20 times a year!)
I'm no serpent however. I'd like to think of myself as much warmer and easier on the eyes. lol..
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Just Dance (that game I got for the
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