How Close is Close Enough??

I'm sort of going off topic for a bit right now, but heres the thing. I really miss the old Avril. I was going through some of my old CDs and found hers. Its amazing the effects songs can have on a person. Music just screams the words I'm too afraid to speak.

"One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain"

-Bob Marley

Right now - I don't feel as alone because when I listen to Avril sing about a guy thats done her wrong; only then does what everyone else say [oh it'll pass, been there done that, youe not the only one... blah blah blah] have meaning. I'm not saying I'm just like Avril or we can relate .. it's just that I understand more of how the heart works, what its capable of.
This very instant, as her soundtrack plays, I've grown to forget about all my pain, knowing the lyrics from memory and reciting them under my breathe - I'm letting go.
I'm giving my mind and heart to come together right now.

Right now, I'm all that matters.


Strength.

The highlight of the summer

OTA [*FUCKING] CON.
*details coming soon*
*details Updated*

Ok Soooo. My dreams of a complete perfect 2 .5 days did not go to waste. I truly enjoyed myself at Otakon 2008. I took control of almost every situation and was granted happiness & satisfaction in it.
For one, I stayed energetic: Rarely sitting down just to sit, going out of the way just for food, or being the wallflower at the rave. [*I actually asked a few guys to dance ]
For two, I kept myself entertained weather I was alone or not : Stalking Monique [Yes, I finally did meet my sex god. one would think my life could've ended right after that. lol], Making candy sushi, attending my own personal photo suite, walking in on random workshops, shopping, dueling, attending the masquerade for the first time ever [& It was soo worth it. Very funny and talented otaku really do exist!] & of course the rave again. ^_^
&& Finally, the people I was with: Mainly Danni: We had fun, Kage, Riot, Chris, Pnut, Jasmine, Monique, Kelitah &Khayla [back for round 2] We all took time out of our [schedules] to just hang out together & Kept in touch the whole time. It was nice. No matter how much I knew it would hurt later .. the fact that Kage and I forgot how to act like just friends. I kept smiling and living in the moment.. If only everyone could do that.

Hmmm. So when shall I start the count down for 2009??

"Sometimes the only sense you can make out of life is a sense of humor."