So it's been raining for two days straight. It's cold out and I really hate that I'm driving so much. Tonight's rant isn't as happy as the previous ones. So.. blame the rain. People are not in control of how I feel about myself. But they do however provoke the way I choose to carry myself.I must have the best of friends, they can always seem to find love within this system of mine. Seriously. I'm happy for their fortune but at the same time bitter by the fact that it doesn't work that easily for me. The last dude I was introduced to by a peer ended up breaking my heart. Ha. I pretty much gave him permission to..
I'm juggling right now.
It's fun but my arms are getting tired. My heart, heavy. My mind is playing tricks on me right now. I keep replaying things only a person in pursuit would dare to think of. I don't want to go down that path no longer because it's scary but because it's draining. I can feel it already. The disappointment. The longing. The guilt.
So what shall I do next?++ What I really meant to say is I'm sorry for the way I am.
I never meant to be so cold.
I was never good at waiting for others to move.
I'll either move too fast and ruin it all or move too slow slow and get left behind. Who's really foolish enough to walk beside me?
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PARANORMAL ACTIVITY.... was scary. I liked being in a completely sold out movie theater (Arundle Mills) Dean Bean is love! Haha.
Rule #32 : Enjoy the little things. Good Night
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