Twist & Shout

"When you see my face hope it gives you hell, Hope it gives you... Hell."

Eh, I think I can be too easily influenced.
Earlier this week I felt overwhelmed by emotions; I was becoming afraid. My mind had a mind of it's own. Pressing me to repeat and rekindle. I felt torn and taken back, either side tugged so strong, so justifying. I was becoming compulsive and my nostalgic thoughts made me sick. Ihad to get out of the house and head to 'the right' direction; surprisingly I did. Neutral territory;
Jojo was just as surprised to see me as I was to have made it.

"Someday you will be loved." DeathCabForCuties

I felt bad, honestly. I wanted to feel alone. I'm not, I never was. It is time that comes in between me and those who care about me. I all too easily forget that.
Anyway, He ended up giving me some very useful advice; I guess I was finally able to receive it.
"You don't have to make everyone happy."
It made me laugh because I've been told so many times before but it was at that moment when I actually heard it. Thanks.

K-On season 2 is already on a great start. So good in fact, I found myself in Bills Music store purchasing a guitar yesterday.
I really would love to be able to play chords. I'm not arguing the fact K-On is not the only factor to this decision, it's pretty obvious. Regardless, I've never gone this far, ' been this influenced.' The acoustic guitar is pretty much bigger than me but I will practice every night till my hands hurt. Bliss.
Coincidences are funny. Sometimes painfully so; I like how I was in yet another pretty heated argument with Kage and sometime I refused to see from his perspective. Not agreeing with his choice of words, and at times talking is pure spite only to find out that the next day in Speech class, we covered purposeful meaning. My teacher said straight from his lips that those who choose to hold common conversations can still be loved by the listener but that listener will soon see look for the usefulness of those words and often detach themselves.
(T__T;)
Oh well, I am still discovering who I am. Layer by layer

Tomorrow is Earth day.
Everyday is Earth day.
yadda yadda, don't worry I will show my mother some love <3